The Pain

The pain of having your job ripped from you is devastating; it leaves a hole in your heart. At first you’re in shock, not sure if this is really happening or if you’re dreaming. And then it hits, like a lightening bolt ripping through your being. Stunned, you ask why followed by what did I do wrong? The answer makes you hold back a scream, because someone you’ve never met, a person that sits in an ivory tower in a large city far far away has determined that not only you, but anyone that holds the same position across the country isn’t needed, that all of your hard work, success for the company and personal sacrifices have gone unnoticed; they aren’t important, you aren’t important.

You find yourself stumbling to safety, the safety of anywhere that isn’t here. Your eyes are filled with tears, your mind racing with the unknown… what now, what am I going to do, how will I pay my bills or support my family? To add insult to injury there isn’t a severance package, just a paycheck for forty hours; however, you were told that you would get paid for a full day even though you were being dismissed at 4 p.m. because the person you’ve never met determined to end things this way; to throw you away like garbage.

At first you wonder how you didn’t see this coming. You’ve learned that your supervisor along with the regional team have known for months that your position would be eliminated, and yet they said nothing; not even out of courtesy for your family. The pain grows thinking of how you trusted them, how you were never anything but honest with them, but yet they were not with you.

Now you have to scramble. You haven’t updated your resume for several years. Why would you since you love your job, truly enjoy where you work, and hadn’t thought of looking for a new position anywhere else. Thankfully you only need to add one position to your resume for it to be current, but where to look, and quietly you ask yourself who would hire me? How is my family going to survive?

Romans 8:28: And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.


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