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It’s Ok

I haven’t written for awhile, not really sure why. Nothing bad has happened, nothing super amazing has happened, just the same day-in-day-out. Everyone goes through it, the hustle and bustle of family, work, activities, commitments, trying to keep up with everything at home while trying to feel good about myself. There are times it’s just chaotic!

I have been working on my book, not my first book but my other book, the piece that’s coming together nicely; the first book needs a lot of rework. It’s ok though, I’m good with letting it sit for awhile before tearing it apart to only make it better. My goal to write something everyday on my site thenextchapter.com has fallen by the wayside. I keep telling myself that it’s ok, if inspiration hits for my latest book then write… and write… and write!

I have found myself kind of blah about things, not overly enthusiastic but not negative either. Just going through the motions. I actually had a person tell me that I was negative just because I gave an honest answer. Hey, if you didn’t want to hear it then don’t tell me that you want my honest opinion. Oh, and they’re upset with me too because I disagreed with them, they’re trying to chop my head off. Oh my, I’m not always gong to agree with you nor you with me. It’d be an awful world if we all just said yes. It’s ok though, I did nothing wrong; they’re just upset that someone actually had guts to stand on their own.

I have been looking closely at the job boards again. Not that I’m leaving my current position anytime soon, heck who knows after disagreeing with a coworker, but I know that where I’m at now isn’t where I’ll be in the days to come. It’s ok though, my ultimate goal is to have my book published and that it’s a best seller. A book tour and promoting my work would be a dream come true, but in the meantime I’ll stay the course, continue my work and keep my out for the next opportunity.

I have been learning to say no. Really, it’s just something that I don’t like to tell people when they ask for my help. I get myself into scheduling crunches, deadline crunches, overload with personal commitment crunches… my work is always done, done well and I come through each and every time, but sometimes the stress is just too much to continue to handle. It’s ok though, I can say no and people don’t get mad, they just have to ask someone else.

James 1: 2-4: Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

 

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Why can’t we learn?

The actions of others affects us all. Over and over the me syndrome takes its toll and harms the we. Why does this cycle continue? Why haven’t we learned from the past?

As you think about this, I’m sure your answer isn’t limited to one event or situation. Whether it’s personal, state, national or global, the decisions made by others affects our lives.

Recently, a little closer to home, a small group of parents and teens took action against one person, a person who gave of themself to benefit others. As the story unfolds, those that ousted this person had their own personal agenda to attack and harm; their goal achieved.

In the wake of their destructive ways, there are numerous casualties. Those that are wounded without knowing why they’ve become a victim at the hands of others. Sadly a new war rages as fingers point, insults fly and blame is placed by so many; most are reeling from the initial attack orchestrated in secret by the few.

Ephesians 6:11: Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil.

 

Heavy Heart

Today I woke to hear that once again innocent people have been harmed. Without warning while going about their daily routine their lives were changed forever. My heart is heavy for those that lost their lives, those that were injured, and the families and friends that are affected by others actions. Exodus 20:13 You shall not murder.

It’s difficult to wrap my thoughts around the why, the who and the how. Why are there people in the world that spend their time thinking of ways to harm others, to show others that they’re tougher? Were these people bullied as children? Were their lives at home as children so miserable that they carry a grudge against the world, against people they’ve never met? Who are these people? What are they about and why is their only goal in life to harm others? How do they have so much time on their hands? How do they have so much power over others? Who has the time to sit around thinking of ways to show the world that they are bullies and will act without compassion or lack of respect for life.

Life is a gift, a gift from God. Our time on earth is precious and should not be wasted pursuing trivial or petty things. He is a loving God and what we do does matter to Him. He gave his only son for the lost, for sin, for us.

John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believe in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

Why are they so difficult?

We all know that person, the one we find “difficult” in one way or another. Have you ever wondered why you’re the one that deals with that person? Whether they’re selfish, argumentative, condescending or just simply rude, somehow they know how to create chaos, and drama surrounds them. They drain a person and their actions become tiring.

Why are we the one that deals with that person?  Is He asking us to handle something, is this an exercise to learn something, but what? It’s easy to respond, and not in a kind manner.

1 Peter 3:9 Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult. On the contrary, repay evil with blessing, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing.

 

The Threat…

Everyday I hear it… it’s real, not just words being thrown around. I’m never really sure if I should respond or just listen. How does it happen that one person has the audacity to subtly hint to others of the peril they face, and not because of their own actions, but due to those by others.

It’s baffling, and frustrating to hold on so tight as everything begins to fall apart. There isn’t a safety net. No one will pick up the pieces. No one will know about the threat. No one will stop the person doing wrong.

Psalms 28:7 The LORD is my strength and my shield; My heart trusts in Him, and I am helped; Therefore my heart exults, And with my song I shall thank Him.

Don’t give in…

It’s difficult to not react, to not repay the wrong that is done to you, even when the attacks continue to come. For months I feel as if I’ve been in a battle, alone on the front facing many who believe that it’s their right to attack an innocent person as they cause harm to not only myself but so many others. Every day is a new battle, it’s tiring and it chips away at the strength it takes to champion and defend those that are innocent.

Prayer helps, it really does; however, the battle continues. I’ve asked numerous times why I’m subject to this, what is it that I’ve done or what am I supposed to learn… I don’t have an answer, I only know that I’ve suffered, my family has suffered as well others. But, seeking revenge or even the thought of retaliation isn’t an option; I’d suffer and not come through this as I must stay strong and move forward with good, not evil.

Romans 12:17-21: 17 If someone has done you wrong, do not repay him with a wrong. Try to do what everyone considers to be good. 18 Do everything possible on your part to live in peace with everybody. 19 Never take revenge, my friends, but instead let God’s anger do it. For the scripture says, “I will take revenge, I will pay back, says the Lord.” 20 Instead, as the scripture says: “If your enemies are hungry, feed them; if they are thirsty, give them a drink; for by doing this you will make them burn with shame.” 21 Do not let evil defeat you; instead, conquer evil with good.

Accomplishments

Have you ever had one of those days? You know the one where you’ve done a lot but accomplished nothing. Normally it’s not a bad day, just busy and nonproductive. When the five o’clock hour approached yesterday, I couldn’t believe how much I hadn’t gotten done even though I had been busy from the moment I walked in the door.

How does this happen? How did I put in a 10 hour day and complete a lot of a little? I didn’t even stop for lunch, just snacked on everything in sight because I had so much to do. I really had to think about all of this last night. I should have put the day behind me, but I kept replaying my day over and over. I wasn’t bothered, just shaking my head at not being able to let go of the day.

My first thought was a trip to the gym, which always makes me feel better, that would be the answer to letting go of the day. After shuffling children to and from their night time activities, I made my way to the gym where it’s just me and my music. What a good feeling to focus on nothing; however, all to soon that distraction from the day was over.

After arriving home, I just knew that spending time with my family before bedtime would put an end to the day. Who can’t relax and enjoy snuggling with your children as they read to you. I have a good friend who’s children are grown and gone so she unwinds at night with her dog in her lap and a good book that she shares with him each night. Spending time with those that you care about is a good way to put the day behind… groan, everyone’s in bed and still no peace.

This is silly, I didn’t have a bad day at work, so let it go. Nope, just can’t… I decided that I would look over the notes in my planner from the day to figure out why I was so bothered. As I read through my day, I thought about everything I had worked on, the phone calls I had taken, and the people I helped, and then I realized that I had had a very productive day. I had accomplished a lot of prep work for projects to move them forward, I made sure that people needing assistance had been taken care of, and I did all of that between 7:30 a.m. and 5:30 p.m. I took a deep breath and smiled, even though I felt as if I had done nothing but spin my wheels all day, I had accomplished a lot; it was a good day.

John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.